I do love a lockable cupboard!

Very happy!! New lockable cupboard now installed in the bathroom to keep all the shampoo, shower gel, bubble bath etc out of reach! So hopefully now Holly wonโ€™t be able to get it and eat it or squirt it all over the house!! Although it was cheap and you can tell! Hopefully it will stay in one piece (and on the wall!!๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ) I do love a lockable cupboard! Remember Erik from last summer?… still going strong although we have lost one of the keys! ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†

#Autism #ASDparentingblog #challengingbehaviour #destruction #damagelimitation #lovealockablecupboard

https://mummy-jet.home.blog/2019/04/17/destruction-and-damage-limitation/

When the inbox is full further information cannot be retained!! Or Iโ€™m Sorry for forgetting stuff!

This was me again this morning profusely apologising to the lovely lady at the dentist for forgetting an appointment yesterday! I don’t have an excuse… well apart from life!! I even had a text reminder last week which said the appointment was at 00:01, which unless our dentist had started a 24hr service I assumed was wrong! ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜† I had thought that I must call them to find out the correct time but by the time I had driven home I had forgotten!!!

I have so many things to remember – people, places, routines, medication, classes, appointments to name a few! Along with all that and my own anxiety and stress worrying about Holly 24/7, following her wherever she goes, I think some days my brain is full and the ‘inbox’ won’t accept any further information. Ha ha ha.

Luckily I have some very supportive and understanding friends and colleagues. And some even remind me, which I am always grateful for. Thank you to all of you – you know who you are.

Of course my forgetfulness may also be down to my age… ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†

A Good Day. Best return for a while!

Today has been a good day! As Holly was still at respite this morning I got to spend some quality time with Jas at a dance festival. So very proud of her. I had a lovely morning watching her and one of her lovely friends dance and with great company. And thanks to her fabulous dance teachers she shone and most importantly, she loved the whole experience.

Next thing – to pick up Holly. We never know which Holly we are going to get when we pick her up from respite. The calm, happy Holly or the tired, grumpy, destructive Holly that kicks and bashes the car all the way home. Apart from the last week we’ve had a challenging time with Hollys behaviour lately. Today was a breath of fresh air. A calm journey home. A happy skip through the house and into the garden.

First thing… trampoline! Holly loves bouncing especially when she can be a nosey neighbour and look over the fence! ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜† Amazingly calm and content!

Jasmine and her friend were practicing acrobatic balances in the garden. Holly wanted to join in! (So did the dog! ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†) Holly was very calm and gentle. No aggressive behaviour and at one point even sat on the grass with them – for a few minutes!

Still very calm! In fact one of the calmest, happiest returns from respite for a while. It was so lovely!

Could it all be down to hormones? The recent change in meds? Being outside? Not sure we will have to try and work it out as usual. But ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž this mood/behaviour is here to stay.

Although it is half term… ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜ฑ๐Ÿคฃ

Just for fun… the Master Shredder selection

This is just for fun and a chance to practice my movie maker skills! In truth the shredding annoys me more than a lot of things – especially when Holly rips something someone has bought her or she destroys something belonging to someone else. Luckily we have lots of ways of avoiding the shredding but it’s almost impossible to stop her shredding the clothes she is wearing. So, as I wrote in a blog post for Mental Health Awareness Week, one of my coping mechanisms is to be able to laugh about things. So I made this short movie.

This is just a small selection of some of the things that have been ripped! So at the moment we are going through clothes weekly! And we have tried all sorts of fabrics, clothing items and styles. On the plus side ( I do like to find something positive out of all our issues) I can cut up the ripped clothes into fabric squares for art textiles projects at work! ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†

And my window blind solution is still going strong! https://mummy-jet.home.blog/2019/03/10/window-cover-project-update/

Maybe one day we will find a solution or some clothes that Holly doesn’t rip. Maybe one day she might just stop?! In the meantime we will continue to buy cheap clothes, charity shop items or use hand-me downs!

Here’s my previous post, The Master Shredder https://mummy-jet.home.blog/2018/11/19/the-master-shredder/

Canโ€™t believe our little girl is growing up…

A few weeks ago I posted a blog about the challenging behavior we have been experiencing. Still don’t know what exactly was the cause. We thought it could have been Hollys change in medication. We’ve had a pretty good weekend – well for us anyway! ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜† Holly enjoyed Saturday club yesterday, a ride in the car and a walk. Yes there were meltdowns but not violent, aggressive ones like we have been experiencing.

This morning was quite calm. This afternoon Holly enjoyed a couple of rides in the car and a walk at the local park. There were a few meltdowns again mostly around not being able to have food but on the whole not aggressive.

Yay we survived the weekend! Even if it was a full moon!

So now comes the detective work… what caused our recent behavior? Could’ve been caused by change in meds? Could be changing weather? Teenage mood swings? Could be hormones caused by puberty – we’re going with this one for now! This week especially. The hardest thing is we don’t know if Holly is experiencing any pain, headaches, stomach cramps? But we do know if we give her paracetamol or ibuprofen her extreme behavior decreases. That is the only indication we have. I just wish she could tell us. It’s something we’re going to have to work on. It’s easy to forget that she is a teenager because her developmental age is significantly below. But she is now 5ft7, Taller and stronger than me. But we will be ready next month. Our next challenge… Autism and Puberty… bring it on!!! ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†

Itโ€™s Mental Health Awareness Week but do you have a coping mechanism?

We all have our own stresses in life. Ours are often a bit… unusual! ๐Ÿ™ˆ Everyone’s issues are important and we all have our own strategies to deal with them and keep our mind positive and body healthy.

We are lucky to have many supportive friends and family to help us out or just listen to us when we need to talk or rant. It’s so important to be able to talk about things especially if you can find people in similar situations- then it’s reassuring to know you’re not alone. It’s why I started this blog.

One coping mechanism I have is to laugh at things or make a joke of things. A while ago one professional visiting Holly actually spotted this straight away. She asked me, “how are you … really?” And then said, “… because you laugh at things that are really not funny!” It made me realise what I do but I know that if I didn’t laugh I would probably cry! It’s my way of dealing with the difficult challenges we face everyday. I think she was possibly, kind of telling me off?

I do laugh and sometimes make jokes of the things that happen. I have a dry, sarcastic sense of humour which on the odd occasion has got me into some sticky situations or made me look like a complete idiot! It’s my way of deflecting stresses and worries although sometimes it just builds up and then it all comes out when I’m alone in my car!

Another coping mechanism for me is walking the dog. I love to get away from it all, into the countryside, just me and the dog! Exercise, fresh air and the best company!

And if I’m really stressed I have been known to go running – with the dog of course! Occasionally!!!! ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†

I see a lot of posts about looking after yourself. It’s so true… you can’t function properly on ’empty’! It’s important to do whatever you need to do to recharge!

See previous blog on the importance of respite.

https://mummy-jet.home.blog/2019/04/26/respite-and-time-to-recharge-is-so-important/

We always expect the unexpected in our fun house tunnel of life!

I was invited by a friend to go with her to one of those outdoor movie experiences to see ‘Grease’ one of my all time favourites. She sold it as a drive in movie experience so I agreed to drive and even got my car washed specially (which is rare!) so we could actually see through the windscreen! Imagine our surprise as we arrived at the park to discover everyone else getting out of their cars in the car park and carrying a variety of chairs, hampers, blankets, tents! etc to the field where the big screen was waiting! Luckily I had grabbed my coat on the way out, I had a rug in the car and my friend had taken a blanket. So it wasn’t ‘drive in’ at all – not at all! We left our car and found a spot on the grass between the chairs of people all in their woolly hats, padded jackets, sleeping bags and the odd gazebo.

Amused we sat and waited as a big black rain cloud approached. Luckily it blew past just depositing a few raindrops! We laughed and laughed at our obvious mistake as it got colder and colder! A hot chocolate from the refreshment tent warmed us up for a while and we still laughed at our lack of prep! See I’ve come to expect the unexpected as that’s what our life is like. But we sang our hearts out and danced away (sitting down as we couldn’t stand up as we could no longer feel our frozen feet!) -any attempt to get warm- but making the best of the situation. Then as the film came to a close, as we sat there freezing our asses off but still laughing about our misunderstanding, the final song at the fun fair reminded me of how lucky we are to be able to laugh off situations with friends.

On our most difficult, challenging days I can feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. Those are the dark days. It feels like it’s never going to change. There is no end to it. There is no cure for Autism! This is it forever! I worry about the future and what will happen to Holly when we are no longer able to look after her or we’re no longer here! It depresses me. It’s dark!

But then we have those days that are fun, unexpected things happen and we celebrate successes! Ok some days are challenging and difficult but with our friends and family we get there! So it may feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel but maybe sometimes our tunnel is like the fun house at the end of ‘Grease’? The continuous revolving tunnel that may sometimes makes us fall but we will find our feet again and move on, the uneven floor of unexpected challenges that may set us back but with the help of friends we succeed!

In this bonkers, madhouse of a tunnel, there are shocks, surprises, challenges, triumphs and fun and we are lucky to share it with friends who help, support, celebrate and laugh along with us like a “Rama lama lama Ka dinga da dinga dong!” ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†

Well we had to laugh!! As you can see we were as freezing as shoo-bop sha wadda wadda yippity boom de boom!! ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ

We had a great time!

Change in medication = increased anxiety

Weโ€™ve had a tough week. We are trying to sort out Hollyโ€™s meds – weโ€™ve stopped one with the intention of increasing another. I wrote a blog post a while ago about medication. Itโ€™s so hard to work out what is happening when the person canโ€™t tell you how they feel or what is happening to them.

So we have seen an increase in anxiety and therefore an increase in the extreme challenging behaviour. Yesterday Holly was anxious as she arrived home. She pinched and scratched me before pulling out handfuls of my hair! Several times. ๐Ÿ˜ฉ

Then full meltdown, lying on the floor, banging her head, arms, feet on the floor. And all before she even got in the house. Weโ€™ve had lots of this this week. This morning she pulled down a lampshade, breaking it. Why? Not sure? It could be medsโ€™? It could be settling into the routine of school? It could be big gap between respite? Carers not coming anymore? Something someone said? Did? Didnโ€™t do? Who knows? Itโ€™s so difficult to work out? But we will stick it out and we will work out the meds… hopefully before I lose all my hair!!!

๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž๐Ÿคž

Our Autism Journey – one thing I have learnt

So as #AutismAwarenessmonth comes to an end I have to say my view has changed. At the beginning of the month I believed there was a lot more awareness now but reading othersโ€™ posts maybe not? I think many of our friends and family and the people around us are well aware (probably fed up of me banging on about it!) but thinking about it we donโ€™t actually do or go many places with Holly any more – itโ€™s far too stressful for everyone involved – so we donโ€™t meet that many new people and the people Holly does meet/see are well aware of what sheโ€™s like. Itโ€™s pretty obvious within a few minutes! Thatโ€™s fine. We do what we have to do to keep everyone happy.

One of most important things that I have learned on our Autism Journey is not to get stressed about the little things in life. Itโ€™s not worth it. We have plenty of major issues to deal with that are majorly stressful!!! Maybe Iโ€™ve mellowed with age? Or maybe itโ€™s just that I CBA!!! ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜† Some people might see some things as bad parenting. What I say to them – walk in my shoes for a day then see what you think! ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ

#Autism #learningdifficulties #challengingbehaviour #AutismAwareness #pickingyourbattles #ASDparenting

Respite and time to recharge is SO important

Made the most of a few days respite time & managed to get away for a few days. My favourite part of the uk- #YorkshireDales Loved it & so did #Poppydog Feeling refreshed & recharged! All ready for the mayhem to recommence this afternoon ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคฃ

Itโ€™s so important to have these times to yourself and with your partner to recuperate. I was recently reminded by FB timehop of my collapse and hospital stay a few years ago! This was a big turning point in my life and the our Autism journey. It made me realise that we actually needed help. It was also the scariest moment of my life – not only because I lost control of my body and felt completely helpless but it also made me think – what would happen if I wasnโ€™t there for my family! โค๏ธ๐Ÿ’™โค๏ธโค๏ธ

#Autism #learningdifficulties #respite #lookafteryourself #family